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I watch with an ominous envy.
This was my favourite time of year.
Was.
The sun is shining, Summer is here.
The season of happiness. Laughter. Joy.
The stores are decked out with Christmas spirit.
Frazzled mums. Happy children.
Full of life. Love. Family.

I watch in envy.
That was us.
It breaks my heart that I want to skip the entire month of December.
A month full of promise.
All I can see is what I had.
Had.

Though it hurts – I fall in love.
With the gleeful giggle of the young child.
The endless wonder.
The time of year everyone comes together.
The reminder that: everything is okay.
And amongst the chaos, heartache and envy, there is magic.
Magic.

You just have to look for it.