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This week has been confusing. It started well, with the New Moon — I did a ritual, set some intentions, meditated & felt amazing. But then, I felt… lost. I think I’m still feeling the fresh grief from losing Harley, but there’s just something else that’s been… off. I have spent days after each other, […]

I don’t consider anything I have decided not to pursue, a failure. Maybe they are failures, in that the direct definition is: lack of success or the neglect or omission of expected or required action. I don’t typically use the word because it has a negative connotation, but the simple fact is that failing — […]

This week sucked. I wasn’t going to write this, but realised that’s part and parcel of wanting to be more consistent with writing, with blog posts, with the little bits of business. There’s nothing like loss and grief to throw out your intention to set routines; so this is the one I’ll keep for now, […]

There is something so heartbreaking and beautiful in watching your old dog becoming more dependent on you. Their own body starts to slow down and you are their guidance. Their eyes search for you in every room to know they are safe. They wait patiently by the side of the bed to be helped up […]

Here is some information about my life you may or may not find interesting: The latest I stayed up this week was 6am. I sat up all night watching New Girl, creating the tarot designs, and… playing candy crush. While eating roll ups and drinking bulk tea. I am simultaneously an old woman and still […]

It is the end of the day, and how much have I achieved today? Not much, to tell you the truth. I am in a period of simply existing. Not a period of transformation, not any growth; there is no romance, no bouts of inspiration, not even working particularly hard. I have indulged in leisure. […]

The sound of the rain patters down, hitting the tiles on the roof and trickling onto the grass. The taste of tea lingers on my tongue from an earlier cup. I want to make another one, but the groove of my body against my pillows has curled into perfection. Faint rumbles of thunder in the […]

After these years, I have known but discover more that there won’t be a time I don’t miss her. I have seen and read from adults in their fifties who miss their parents. That I still have so much of my life to live, and so many milestones to reach, and each time it’s an […]

I have felt sad the past few days. An amalgamation of things, but my mind has wandered back to my grief. Sometimes it feels more comforting to settle into that sadness, because it makes more sense than anything else. I truly thought I would be okay walking into a hospital, but the moment my foot […]

I have been waking up every day with a desire to live a life that is not my own; dressed in clothes that make me feel – and look – good, meeting new people, and sharing more laughter with those already close to my heart. Going on more adventures that extend the mundane. Exploring more […]